I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
=)
I might not have mentioned.. that I can't cycle. Well, I can but that was at least 15 years ago since I last cycled. It was something I used to do when I was a child and I remember I enjoyed it very very much. Had such fond memories of it when my mom used to bring me cycling around where we used to live with a childhood friend. Of course then, the bike was you know, four wheeled.
Until one day, my dad took those small wheels out and it was time for me to cycle on two wheels. I was terribly scared and terrified. I think I forgot to brake while I was coming down from a steep path. My left leg was badly bruised and I lost quite a bit of blood. The scar is still visible today and I doubt it is ever gonna fade. It reminds me of my mom crying with me at that time everytime I look at it. It was probably one of the worst childhood experience and it certainly didn't help when I needed injections for it. So yeah, I never once tried to cycle anymore. I can't figure out whether it was because I was so afraid of cycling again or because I didn't want my mom to be worried again.
However, no surprises, I grew up tripping over things and walking blindly. Hence the scars on my left leg. My right leg luckily hasn't suffered the same fate but it's so weird to always land myself on the left. I am now a lot more cautious because I remember my ballet teacher telling me off every single time I told him I had some kind of accident. Not that it was intentional but I was just.. prone to falling.
It seems whenever something bad that hurts me physically or emotionally, I will not try and avoid it whenever possible. Looking back, it's been a long time that I have actually let myself feel pain. It's time to do something about it.
I personally think smelling good is a great feel good factor (: I guess that is why we are generally attracted to people who smell good... I do!
I smile whenever I could smell my perfume on my pillow. Hahah.. very weird. But it's true =P
But sometimes when a stranger walks pass me and it reminds me of some intimate moments or rather someone I know who smells the same. I'd go like, "Hey that smells like .....!"
So keep smelling nice.. someone might be thinking of you (:
Waaa.. sudah holidae.
H-O-L-I-DAY. Time to catch up with my academic work, which I have abandoned for quite some time. Piles and piles of books and papers to read and I swear, no more shopping for sometime. Was called for an interview, what a time to work with so much going on.. but hey, I was assured of a slight few-pence-higher-pay-per-hour and less chaotic environment compared to the stinky SW. But.. I'm going home soon =S
Power revision before the trip. Deep deep troublesss with due dates and exam dates flashing in my diary. And come the bestest part, May. And June, internship starts, which also means work. Do I ever stop planning? And then September, time to part with loved ones once again... that's all I can think of.
Sometimes I wish I didn't see what I saw today. But somehow, I just can't be bothered anymore.
It's time to erase and delete and pretend we had no history.
So bloody tired to brave the wind.
Applied for internship in a market research company located in PJ and they got back to me in less than 24 hours! Haiyoh.. what am I getting into? A nine-to-six job again.. wish me luck. Why I so semangat? =X
I live by it.
New pumps I likes.
On the other hand.. I ought to think about my uncertain future as summer approaches. God, what are Your plans for me?
Listen to this.. Touched me so much I cried.
Yeah I know I'm emotional. Here's the poem..
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson
Thank you, Jesus! I'm healed in Your precious name. Because nothing is worse than You who was nailed and humiliated on the cross.
